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Category: Being the Best

  • Dreams of Greatness

    My son recently told me that he loved that I still had hopes and dreams. I could take this as a sign that he thinks I’m impossibly old (he is 25) but instead I am choosing to take it at face value. Is it true? I wondered when he said that. It is true. One…

  • Getting Out of the Race

    I once had a near-meltdown because my favorite coffee mug was broken. Worse, it was broken outside of my range of control by someone else. I haven’t had enough therapy in my life to quite unpack why this event was so triggering for me. But I do think that in some way this desire to…

  • What Would It Have Been Like?

    I never got to be the Dying Swan in Swan Lake. What would that have been like? To be able perform the role for an audience. But also, to be a ballet dancer who was that good. What would it have been like to have realized this life-long dream in my own, actual (and not…

  • When You Are the Best Dancer

    I dream that I am dancing in an audition. I lift my knee in passé, extend and unfold my leg so my foot reaches upwards into développé, and my pointed toe arcs high above my head. I jump and cross my legs quickly in an entrechat and my legs cross high and clean so there…